Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.

Sometimes you just get that feeling...

that everything is just PERFECT...

the right mood,

the right smell in the air,

the right song...

 everything is exactly as it's meant to be...

but then i realize. it's all false, because you aren't there.

love. there's no other way to live.

"So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

Title QUOTE: Re-used because it's necessary to reiterate this...

"Always remember where we come from, how we got here, and Who led us into the warmth of the sunshine." 

"Each of us is carving a stone, erecting a column, or cutting a piece of stained glass in the construction of something much bigger than ourselves."

"Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation."

 There are two ways through life: the way of nature, and the way of Grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. 

Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy when all the world is shining around it. And love is smiling through all things. 

-Tree of Life

Today I missed...

my friends.

college.

family.

my doggies.

good sleep.

lazy days.

the asgard porch.

laughter.

feeling connected.

conversation.

family dinners.

smiling kids.

kitchen conversations.

after diner walks.

my brothers.

bloomington.

feeling grounded.

familiar company.

This was a really good week.

I think it spoiled me.

Good times to come...looking forward to spending it with friends and family.

hate feeling this lonely.

in general. much progress was made.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before."

“Virtue is the fragrance of the flowers which the tree of life puts forth."

" Love is a symbol of eternity.  It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.  "

 “As for me, to love you alone, to make you happy, to do nothing which would contradict your wishes, this is my destiny and the meaning of my life”

 "I want to be here and nowhere else, Rationing off bits of myself...So I can crumble at your side."

 TO FIND MEANING IS TO KNOW PURPOSE, THIS IS MINE, THE GREAT SEARCH

This is real.

To know who you, where you belong...

the search for meaning and purpose,

the understanding of the origin of life.

To believe, to feel, to love.

To love is the most real.

To love is purpose, and honesty, and above else the most important.

Do not deny yourself love.

Love yourself, love others, love what is around you.

If you love, you will find meaning.

If you find meaning,

that is when you will understand your purpose.