“We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and — in spite of True Romance magazines — we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely — at least, not all the time — but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.”
-Hunter S. Thompson
No, we won't fade into darkness
Nothing to fear but fear itself
We'll be okay just keep the faith
And we won't fade into darkness.
Nothing to fear but fear itself
We'll be okay just keep the faith
And we won't fade into darkness.
"It's something that I can't explain and something that cannot really be measured in any way. It's has and will continue to leave a lasting impact on the way I view people, the way I interact, and my general philosophy. I think it's made me a stronger more tolerant person of quite a bit. And I really wanted to express my gratitude. So thanks, thank you."
"I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”
Lately it has come to mind that while life is incredibly short it can feel incredibly long.
Each day starting as a continuation of the yesterday in an endless sort of loop.
I bounce between the mindless drones of the day to day and inspirations of transformation.
As more time passes and another year is here,
there is so much out of life I want and need,
and the hard painful truth of this is that I'm not where i thought I would be.
That being said, its okay-because where I am is life and living too.
Recently I tried to describe myself to another.
Pause for a moment, because there are many versions of self.
Realizing this can be overwhelming, but think about standing in a mirrored room.
You have the version of self that you truly are starring at multiple reflections...
the version of who you think you are
the version of who you want to be,
the version others see you as,
the good version, the perfect version, the flawed version,
and on and on and on....
infinite reflections of the same you.
The version I'm talking about is the one I'm creating and becoming.
Not quite who I am, and more towards who I will be.
One who is dying for freedom and adventure.
Uncertain of achieving the nomadic lifestyle in this date and time.
The Jack Kerouac or Christopher McCandless of this time.
Destined to break down the parameters of society,
rejecting the traditional path of cohabitating and reproducing.
Instead using the world as an arena for playing and adventuring.
Home is the road and the road leads west.
And all adventures stem from creating new normals and encountering life at its purest rawest moments.
Its hard to explain this all because it's not who I am in the moment.
But it's the truth of the desire of what is inside.
And when i really think about the grander picture of life,
it's so short to not be living in the way you natural fit, and too long to get there.
Really what I want, is to leave behind something bigger than right now.
Spending each moment exploring and moving about until all the pieces are collected,
then leaving them behind to be put together at a different date.
The way I've defined greatness...
is realization and actualization of full potential and unprecedented uninterrupted joy.
I want to live a life of greatness.
The great adventure, the great experience,the great love, in a great world.
Some may have a fear of change and the unknown,
I will not be dishonest, these may bring me fear.
However, I do not find discomfort in those feelings,
Rather motivation is birthed from uncertainty.
Transformation fuels my adventures of the unknown.
What brings discomfort is the known and the knowing.
Life cannot bring great transformation if it becomes known.
Life will not bring greatness the way its naturally supposed to occur.
The only thing I ever want to be predictable is a beautiful sunrise and a brilliant sunset.
Everything in-between a complete newness.
Filled with experiences that are shared and unshared,
filled with moments where time dissolves and life is literally starring you in the face.
I'd rather have 10 great years than 50 okay ones.
Anyways, back to achievement,
so how i feel about it all is this:
stuff is just stuff.
Anything that has a price tag can be replaced,
and while that stuff may bring comfort, it also brings the known.
People are irreplaceable,
and true relationships are bonded through connections that are unbreakable by time or locations.
People will fall away and reappear.
Some are there to teach and encourage us,
others there to challenge us,
others there to bring about pain and create a strength that is only born from brokenness.
I don't miss those people and I'm glad to watch them leave or to send them away,
but I am eternally thankful for the strength they helped me achieve.
but you cannot limit people or relationships, the world is a small place and each connection brings us closer.
And you realize that people are people.
And human connectedness is a blessing and an unrealized beauty.
I understand roots, and there's a lot to be said for creating a strong foundation.
That could be your greatness.
To nest is your own realization of full potential and it brings you unprecedented uninterrupted joy.
This is not for me,
because most peoples roots are worn on my body like chains,
weighing and confining my version of self.
My greatness, my legacy, my purpose...
will remain this until otherwise discovered:
a life of wandering and experiencing.
Perhaps the journey is made for one, perhaps for two or more.
But it is a journey nonetheless,
and the only predictability is the sun and the stars.
Each day is filled with newness, change is the only constant, and time is obsolete.
When I really think about life in this way,
it creates an energy and excitement that cannot exist in any other manner.
It ignites my soul and entire mind and heart feel alive.
The truest test of self,
transformation and creation of layers upon layers of different versions.
Its human connectedness.
Its greatneess.
It's love and beauty and hopefulness.
And in the here and now, it doesn't always feel like it's this way.
But i know that we create the reality we live in.
And I will never stop fighting to find my greatness.
I will never stop creating the better version of self.
I will never stop being hopeful for a bravery that propels me into the unforeseen.
I will never stop being optimistic that its better than what it is.
And keep in mind for the here and the now,
it all matters.