We're a thousand miles from comfort, we have traveled land and sea But as long as you are with me, there's no place I'd rather be I would wait forever, exalted in the scene As long as I am with you, my heart continues to beat...

“I don't really care. I shouldn't have to care. I shouldn't have to work this hard. I realize now that dying is easy. Living is hard.” 

-if. i. stay.

“Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.” 

“I feel too much. That's what's going on.' 'Do you think one can feel too much? Or just feel in the wrong ways?' 'My insides don't match up with my outsides.' 'Do anyone's insides and outsides match up?' 'I don't know. I'm only me.' 'Maybe that's what a person's personality is: the difference between the inside and outside.' 'But it's worse for me.' 'I wonder if everyone thinks it's worse for him.' 'Probably. But it really is worse for me.” 
― Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Why should you care, what they think of you
When you're all alone, by yourself, do you like you?
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to bend until you break
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

Its never quite makes sense the way you think it will.

Life happens rapidly at a pace that is unmatched,

literally to it's own beat...unpredictable and honest.

It doesn't happen the way you plan,

life throws curve balls constantly-but what can you do?

Hope to keep a pure optimism,

hope to remain as energetic and brave as always,

hope that you can find the good in the hard times,

hope that love will flourish and relationships will remain in tact.

I never thought it would be this way at all,

but in the weirdest way it's exactly how I wanted it.

The harder you want something the more unobtainable it seems.

And then all of a sudden,

when you aren't the least bit prepared,

everything falls exactly into it's right place.

It constantly amazes me when this occurs.

Change that creates chaos becomes a logical pattern of cause and effect.

To transform was free falling through the air, the sky surrounding and the ground far below,

to a burning passion and obsession with a concrete jungle,

to discover the essence of your own being,

to experience true survival.

To be known and unknown and to create a home.

To build confidences and fine tune skills.

Then to watch it disappear as a tiny dot in the rear view...

then a magical fall,

filled with crisp nights, brilliant sunsets, and laughter...

so much joy harnessed in one place.

Then to throw yourself right back into it all.

To create and build all again, coming from nothing.

To learn hard hard lessons and to prioritize.

I always say, the people in your past who disappear will re appear in your future,

if it is meant to be.

We don't control time.

Rather experience it all and take nothing fore-granted,

it could all be gone in a second.

I know this all too well.

How is it that being surrounded by people you feel the loneliest?

And when you're alone you feel the safest?

It doesn't make any sense.

It should be the other way around.

Working constantly to try to understand love,

commitment, sacrifice, dedication.

What happens when you don't feel anything at all.

Its that feeling that you were never supposed to be in this from the start.

A serious of fortunate coincidences and accidental actions that brought you to this moment.

Eerie calm, unsettling peace,

to not have that burning desire to be in another place,

to do another thing,

to experience.

Knowing that right now in this moment everything falls exactly into place.

You take credit for the events that brought you here.

You pay homage to the unspeakable acts of bravery.

The hard truths and the drastic changes.

Creation, transformation, beauty, hope, love, bravery.

It all matters doesn't it....

When not knowing suddenly feels like a comfort, wrapped tightly.

What does that mean?

Its not easy to live in a world of opposites.

Most people fail to understand that and it's okay.

Call it impatience, call it selfish, call it unsatisfied.

I call it a blissful hopefulness that its all right around the corner.

One move away from finishing the puzzle,

one action away from understanding.

It's hard to be misunderstood,

it's even worse to feel as though no one wants to try.

Constantly reminding yourself it's not this way for everyone.

Wearing a lens of worldly perspective,

taking the extra moment to understand a stranger.

This is what keeps us connected,

this is what keeps a realistic understanding,

this creates empathy and compassion.

Human connectedness is the most magical thing of all.

Realizing that there is an unspeakable bond between everyone.

Understanding at the core of everything it all feels the same.

I don't pretend there weren't mistakes along the way.

I don't pretend there aren't more mistakes to come...

but live with no regrets.

Who knows...you might get another shot at everything but then again you might not.

You understand that you must take responsibility for creating the right now.

Take responsibility for the transformation along the way.

So many opportunities, new experiences...

some pass by, others are devoured.

I said no in order to not settle.

I said no in order to no reset my clock.

I understand the vastness that lies ahead,

and I understand the value in keeping on.

Because remember it all matters.

Life is so. much. shorter.

than you know,

and don't blink too much.

You might miss the beauty in the little things.

You might miss an opportunity to grow in love.

You might forget your bravery and hopefulness.

You don't have to feel understood all the time,

you just have to be honest with yourself.

This will create a healthy way of living.

This will create new horizons.

This will afford new adventures.

A home is what you make it to be.

Family is not defined in a single way.

Life is not structured, there are many paths.

Love is undefined.

Just wait for those moments where everything is exactly as it should be.

Just wait for it all to fall into place.

Don't ever limit yourself because time does this for us.

Experience as much as possible,

and keep an optimism about yourself.

It may be easier, it may be harder,

but if you remain brave and hopeful you'll survive whatever is ahead.

You've done it before.

You can do it again.