"Some people say I'm a workaholic, and I don't think that's what it is. I think I just love it so much and, for me, it doesn't feel like work. And this has been a dream of mine for so long, and it's taken longer than I had hoped it would. That when it finally has come to me I've been so scared that it's going to go away..."
"And something really beautiful has happened in the past ten days, where I'm starting to feel like, okay I can breathe. It's okay. You've found a place. No matter what, you will always be okay..."
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
-Harriet Tubman
-Henry David Thoreau
A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.
-Oscar Wilde
"...I wish I could go back to Jessica Chastain in December 2003, and say,'it's okay. Calm down, it's alright, you will be heard at some point.' But also, I do know the nature of this business and I know there is ebbs and flows. And as wonderful and exciting as all this is, this is my dream come true. Some people say I'm a workaholic, and I don't think that's what it is. I think I just love it so much and, for me, it doesn't feel like work. And this has been a dream of mine for so long, and it's taken longer than I had hoped it would. That when it finally has come to me I've been so scared that it's going to go away. So there's this kinda like grasping at it and working all the time. And something really beautiful has happened in the past ten days, where I'm starting to feel like, okay I can breathe. It's okay. You've found a place. No matter what, you will always be okay. It doesn't mean you will be number 1 and number 2 in the box office but you've found a little wedge in this community, and you can just relax." -Jessica Chastain The HOLLYWOOD Reporter 3:00 PM PST 2/16/2013 by Scott Feinberg
I know this is not my typical rambling,
but I'm oozing with thoughts and inspiration.
See above, the lengthy paragraph, transcript from an interview done in 2013.
And I'm mulling it over and over in my mind.
No matter about the source, although it adds to its impressiveness,
but look deeper into the content.
And I just know I haven't heard anything that inspiring in a long long time.
So its been dominating my thoughts.
And it's a perfect illustration for how I feel.
This "old as time" romantic idea of dreaming big,
chasing those dreams down,
and watching them come to fruition.
The most painstakingly beautiful experience.
And what's impressed me so much,
never mind the context,
but it's the heart that's behind the words.
Its encouragement for anyone who has ever fought for what they really wanted.
It's for anyone who has allowed themselves to be misunderstood to remain honest.
It's hopefulness for our selves, past and present that sometimes,
there's an end or a middle to our story that is so unpredictable,
and so amazing.
It's for anyone who has ever realized they are living their dream.
And sometimes, its hard to dream big.
It feels like you are purposefully isolating yourself
as you are beaten again and again.
But there is something beautiful about not giving up.
Because amazing things can happen with perseverance.
And I know that not all dreamers can reach that point,
where you're standing in the midst of success,
looking all around you,
pouring out gratitude and thankfulness
that you're exactly where you want to be.
But perhaps its that we pass through these moments,
too quickly.
Because this interview really made me think,
what would I say to myself if I went back ten years ago.
It such an honest and personal answer to a question,
asked of someone who has stood surrounded by success.
And it was an incredibly relate able answer.
And I felt almost as if someone had looked deep into my own thoughts.
And it caused an outpouring of appreciation for my own journey,
and a gratitude for my past,
and a blind passionate hopefulness for a future.
So much change, so much work has happened.
So much heartache, bravery, fearfulness, celebration.
And the results have been indescribable.
The feelings and lessons along the way,
fantasies dreamed into reality.
And to be one of the lucky ones,
who reached out and grabbed tightly to a huge dream.
To have taken large risks, and been the recipient of such high reward.
To have been the places I've been,
to have met the people I've met,
to have learned the lessons I've learned...
A real sacred and gracious way to appreciate life.
And though my dreams are different,
I have been in that moment,
where I'm grasping, because I'm terrified that it's going to be taken away.
And sometimes working too hard to preserve that
can actually take away from it all.
I've stood in my city,
alone, triumphant, living out a life long dream.
And I know, if I could go back to myself then,
I would say to her,
"It's okay.
You can breathe.
You've found a place.
No matter what, you will always be okay."