"Call me Ishmael. Some years ago — never mind how long precisely — having little or no money in my purse, and nothing particular to interest me on shore, I thought I would sail about a little and see the watery part of the world."

The changes in our life must come from the impossibility to live otherwise than according to the demands of our conscience not from our mental resolution to try a new form of life. - Leo Tolstoy

“He was unheeded, happy, and near to the wild heart of life. He was alone and young and wilful and wildhearted, alone amid a waste of wildair and brackish waters and the seaharvest of shells and tangle and veiled grey sunlight.” 

― Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

In the morning it comes, heaven sent a hurricane
Not a trace of the sun but I don't even run from rain
Beating out of my chest, my heart is holding on to you
From the moment I knew
From the moment I knew

You are the air in my breath filling up my love soaked lungs
Such a beautiful mess intertwined and overrun
Nothing better than this, oh, and then the storm can come
You feel just like the sun
Just like the sun

"So I punched a hole in the roof. Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you. The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing.” -Taylor Swift

“Cities were always like people, showing their varying personalities to the traveler. Depending on the city and on the traveler, there might begin a mutual love, or dislike, friendship, or enmity. Where one city will rise a certain individual to glory, it will destroy another who is not suited to its personality. Only through travel can we know where we belong or not, where we are loved and where we are rejected.” 
― Roman Payne, Cities & Countries

It's interesting to see how it all looks,

as more and more pieces begin to fall into place.

The moment feels like reaching the top of a roller-coaster,

teetering on the edge just before your stomach leaps into your chest.

Its a pure rush of adrenaline and is over so quickly.

Change sets about undeniable forward motion.

I'm excited for what lies right ahead of me,

within my grasp finally.

The west is the best and my home is the road.

Adventures pave the roads untraveled.

Self-discovery and growth inevitable outcomes to the future.

I can't wait to have the ocean a permanent part of my landscape.

A dream I have hoped for and called upon finally becoming a reality.

But everything has a specific time and place,

and it's all happening as it should.

Using the tools of patience, bravery, hopefulness, and perpetual self-transformation,

I'm creating the life I want the most.

Living fiercely with no regrets,

soaking up all the gifts the universe provides,

endless grateful to the people who have given me opportunities.

I never thought it would be this easy,

and life would have such a fluid motion,

but maybe it's the calm before the storm,

or perhaps it's the calm after it.

The waters have been choppy and change was a natural part of every day...

with consistency came satisfaction and an appreciation for all the little things.

Quiet moments of reflection on the past and present.

Never taking a single thing foregranted in the process.

Because it's all about learning as you go about it.

Having the understanding that nothing happens exactly the way you want,

being ready to change direction in an instant.

Knowing that unexpected surprises can bring good and bad,

but either way it's a chance for character building.

Separately, but of equal importance,

it's a good practice to never leave things unsaid.

The easiest way of self-expression is by speaking up,

and people will never be able to read your thoughts,

and human connectedness is essential to life.

Celebrate relationships that challenge you,

because those are the ones that grow you,

and those people are people that will stand behind you at your weakness,

because they care enough to help you see what's often right in front of our face.

Value those that are here and now,

and know they will reappear in your future if it's meant to be that way.

Love.

I may never really understand love in all it's forms,

but I understand it as it pertains to me.

Love has always been synonymous to sacrifice.

Which others might find a bit odd,

but know that I don't mean it the way it sounds.

When love truly manifests itself,

it will be worth the sacrifice of self.

The path will be widened to walk alongside another.

A pureness not peppered with resentment,

eager compromises.

It will all make sense the way it should.

I don't worry about not finding or having love,

because it's not something that is created from hard work,

or a treasure you find,

or a formula you follow.

Rather love exists all on it's own.

Its something to recognize, appreciate, admire,

but it stands on its own.

I cannot see the future as it lies ahead,

but I do not fear it.

I hope in some way, there is a slight possibility of you.

For now we walk in separate directions,

and you remain a quiet voice of inspiration.

Infrequent but powerful,

reminding me about the importance of love.

A distant afterthought locked away deep in my subconscious.

My heart is my own,

and I have been a keeper of it for such a short time,

I'm still learning how to transform into the most honest version of who I'm meant to be.

But maybe,

once this skill is fined tuned,

and I'm confident that I've traveled through the path I'm meant to journey,

we will meet again,

in a familiar place in a familiar time.

Fireworks and full moons overhead,

and I will allow another to guard the most important thing I have.

There's no one I have met more worthy of this task then you.

But I'm playing by the rules,

and being the most fair I can be.

The timing is just not quite right for the right now.

And I've learned to have patience and hopefulness that the pieces will fall into place as they are meant too.

They always have before.

I don't doubt they will continue to do so,

if I walk the truest journey,

and I continue to practice being a better version of myself.

But I don't think I"ll soon forget about how the winters became the summers,

quiet snowfall replaced with the twinkle of lightening bugs in the night sky.

I lived in the moment with you,

and enjoyed every second,

making the present dominate all thoughts of past and future.

Just as you told me I should.

So realize this,

perfect moments are not so rare,

keep yourself open to all possibilities.

Appreciate yourself in its entirety: mind, body, spirit.

Exercise your heart and build connections with others.

Keep pursuing your dreams,

because when you feel the most lost it might just mean everything is starting to fit together.

This may sound a bit corny,

but you really do create your reality.

Choose to live a life that brings you joy,

does not harm others,

and reach higher for an understanding that leads to self-actualization.

It's such a crazy wild beautiful journey,

and you may only have each opportunity once.

Don't waste a minute of it,

because life and time happens no matter what.

It all matters.

And finally.

Don't forget to love.