“What is that feeling when you're driving away from people and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? - it's the too-huge world vaulting us, and it's good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.” ― Jack Kerouac, On the Road

Long live the pioneers

Rebels and mutineers

Go forth and have no fear

Come close the end is near

And I say hey, hey hey hey

Living like we're renegades

X Ambassadors

Oklahoma

I know that however things all fall into place,

whether predictable or surprising,

I'm at peace with the process.

Things that seem easy now,

will unravel quickly and morph into the unexpected,

but I can weather the storm.

What I've come out of has only taught me to persevere,

to never say never,

to never say always,

to give second chances,

9.23.15

Arizona

"There was madness in any direction, at any hour. You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning..."

Hunter S Thompson

New Mexico

And where I was is beautiful
Because I was free

Once upon another time
Before I knew which life was mine
Before I left the child behind me
I saw myself in summer nights
And stars lit up like candle light
I make my wish but mostly I believed...

Sara Bareilles

California

"I do know the nature of this business and I know there is ebbs and flows. And as wonderful and exciting as all this is, this is my dream come true. Some people say I'm a workaholic, and I don't think that's what it is. I think I just love it so much and, for me, it doesn't feel like work. And this has been a dream of mine for so long, and it's taken longer than I had hoped it would. That when it finally has come to me I've been so scared that it's going to go away. So there's this kinda like grasping at it and working all the time. And something really beautiful has happened in the past ten days, where I'm starting to feel like, okay I can breathe. It's okay. You've found a place. No matter what, you will always be okay." -Jessica Chastain

Endlessly Grateful for a Life Paved with Adventure.

I have absorbed a lot of change as of late,

and my world looks completely different...

Sitting here in my tower on a hill,

I can't help but absorb how much my landscape has evolved.

Such a grand adventure,

relocating across country.

Driving through mountains and deserts,

to reach the ocean,

finally.

But I've made it to where I am,

and I am indescribably happy.

Life has never felt this way before,

complete.

It's a peaceful feeling to check everything off the list.

Wondering what new adventures to obtain.

But in the here and now I am fully in the moment,

with life fully happening all around me.

What is this life?

How am I so lucky to have found my way to this place?

The sunsets are the most magnificent here,

and I have a feeling of complete belonging,

watching the sun dip into the ocean,

and stars filling the night sky.

Completely indebted to the people and circumstances that happened along the way,

each moment bringing me closer to my new reality,

each step further into this new beginning.

It's unlike it ever was before.

The streets are cleaner than the last city that stole my heart,

and I am wide-eyed and innocent.

But really,

what is there to say right now?

I have learned to share the  most necessary things,

and hold the thoughts and questions close,

waiting until it becomes clear.

No aching desire to find myself out of the middle,

but a peaceful satisfaction lies in residing here on the west coast.

I can't believe it's as real as it is,

because I am convinced I will wake up from this dream at any moment.

I miss the comfort of the relationships that I keep,

but am completely overcome with the eagerness to build new ones.

I can't help but wonder if this is the end for now,

the beginning of the second chapter,

and I'm displaced in time and geography.

A home that was waiting for me all along,

speckled with mountains and decorated with ocean waves,

this place is the most beautiful place I've ever been.

Quiet curiosity about what life will morph into,

eagerness to begin to build new consistencies.

Perhaps it was always meant to be this way,

and everything else was just a run in the grand ladder or life.

Have you ever felt that moment,

when you know that everything you wanted and worked for,

was not only within your reach,

but a complete truth?

Because I don't know how often this comes around,

and whether it will ever be this way again,

but I certainly hope that I can capture this event,

and relive it over and over again.

What will my story be?

Am I done searching?

Could this be the legacy...

Perseverance produces dividends like never expected.

Bravery and patience has paid off,

and now it's just learning to be,

and learning to stay,

and learning to continue to grow.

There's no where left to wander,

because roots have already attached themselves to this ground.

Instead adventures lie and wait,

but the hopefulness of wanting to be in this place is finally satisfied.

I never thought that events would unfold like this.

The plan was ever changing and evolving.

Each minute that passed,

each moment of discomfort,

each instance of desperation,

seems completely worth the wait,

to know that this has all fallen together like it has.

I thought maybe life would reach a plateau like this,

I hoped diligently for it.

I worked to make the right moves,

and to head in the correct direction,

but never was I certain this is what would become.

And never will I take foregranted how far I have come.

Please let this be a reminder in the future,

that big dreams can become reality,

and that figuring out your own truth,

will bring you to a place of happiness.

Nothing is ever as impossible as it seems,

but nothing is ever completely in your control.

You must do your best to travel in the direction you are meant to go.

Listen to your gut,

follow the signs and jump at every opportunity.

Each journey is important and each moment really does matter.

In the grand scheme of it all,

you're simply fitting pieces of the puzzle together until it all makes sense.

I am not foolish enough to believe it will be easy,

because life has a way of finding teachable moments.

There will be struggles ahead,

but you are well equipped to handle them.

Stay humble and modest,

help to grow yourself,

but take time to show kindness to others as well,

because after all,

they showed kindness to you.

For now though,

appreciate that you are where you are.

Keep listening to your past,

because it will revel wisdom in your future.

Enjoy the new moments.

Remind yourself that life may never be this way again.

Don't be ungrateful when the moment are dull,

don't be burdened by stress from things your can't control.

Patience,

and trust the process because it works.

I hope you know that for now I will be in this place,

finding the happiness and satisfaction that you have already obtained.

Growing through new relationships and new experiences.

Planning and plotting the next adventure.

Thank you West Coast,

you have accepted me here with open arms.

My blessing are too numerous to count.

Seek out beauty,

practice love,

and know that living is the greatest adventure of all.