“It's important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse.”
I said oh my, what a marvellous tune
It was the best night,
never would forget how we moved
The whole place was dressed to the nines,
and we were dancing, dancing
Like we're made of starlight...
Starlight
"So, tomorrow, I'm leaving. And I'm not going to let that happen again with anyone else. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm going to be who I really am. And i'm going to figure out what that is. But right now I'm here with you. And I want to know where you are, what you need, and what you want to do."
perks. of. being. a. wallflower.
“I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always ... so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”
Life of Pi
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| BROOKLYN BRIDGE: New York City I love you, and it breaks my heart to know you're suffering |
"To call each thing by its right name....
By its right name.
What if I were smiling and running into your arms?
Would you see then,
what I see now?"
“We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of the dream. Wandering by lone sea breakers, and sitting by desolate streams. World losers and world forsakers, for whom the pale moon gleams. Yet we are movers and the shakers of the world forever it seems.”
Forward:
One year ago today, I moved out of the great city I called home for nine months...
and that drive to Boston in my white nissan versa rental was terrifying, heartbreaking, exciting, relieving...
I felt every emotion possible as I left the city in my rear-view.
And now, 365 days later, not a day goes by that I don't quietly (or not so quietly) reflect on that journey.
Thank you city of silver lights and sky high dreams for teaching me about myself,
continuing to teach me about myself,
and for representing so strongly the person I hope I'm becoming.
Love is so complex,
how it ebbs and flows like the tide on the sea.
I've never really understood love,
and maybe I never will,
but right now I'm too the point where it makes more sense.
Love and fear...
bouncing back and forth between the two like a tennis match.
Every time I get my footing secured,
I just end up jumping head first into the next scary situation.
And each time I emerge,
I see this new version of myself,
the better version...the truer version.
Sometimes it can surprise you,
the ways you change...
the things you think are steadfast,
with one jarring event
your whole world slides out from under you...
and everything you've known to always be true...forever true...
is completely different.
As quick at the winds and the rain and water recedes,
you're stuck cleaning up the massacre of the un-welcomed storm
that has destroyed your universe bit by bit.
It's been one month, a little less...
and yet I still challenged in the same ways I was challenged before.
Angry at the world for demanding a patience I've fought to sustain,
helpless at the hopelessness of every situation,
surprised with each hand I'm dealt.
Yet this bright bright bright burning fire,
this fire of hope and possibility and
invincibility...
it's captured my soul...
and so I love the adventure of the life I live,
and I love the unpredictability that keeps me accountable to myself,
and I fear the adventures that are ahead,
and I fear the unpredictability that keeps me accountable to myself.
And I'm stuck in this back and forth...
battered by an angry store of love and fear.
So let me tell you this...
because I don't understand love,
doesn't mean you never will.
Surround yourself with love,
arm yourself with love...
and fight the fears that torment.
Be brave,
stay true to the person you want to be...
take risks...
in life.,
in love,
in everything.
Because when you fear the adventure it's okay.
It becomes an opportunity for you to learn and grow and evolve...
so you can love harder and live braver.
Stop letting the demons into your head,
they are poisoning the person you used to be,
and creating a person you never wanted to become.
Know that what you do and the things you say are real,
and they matter.
And be careful, because with forgiveness comes acceptance.
Never settle for any less then you deserve,
because that's cheating yourself of being loved the way you are supposed to be loved.
Let life be scary,
it will keep you accountable.
Know that nothing last forever,
nothing stays the same always...
APPRECIATE EVERY MOMENT!
I cannot stress this enough.
Life happens in a flash,
and you will never be fully prepared for everything.
So remain hopeful in the evolution of it all.
Appreciate the beautiful moments,
I'm not perfect,
and I don't pretend to be perfect.
But i realize the urgency of living.
The necessity of fear,
the dire need to love and to be loved.
I can only hope as the future looms ahead,
I will remain planted on my path,
I will let the Wanderlust soak into my blood.
I will embrace the person I am today,
I will strive for the person I hope to be tomorrow.
And I will enjoy the beautiful-ness of it all.
And I will try to love you with everything I can.
And I will always find the hope in the situation,
and use it as my guiding light on any adventure that is ahead.