"Nothin' lasts forever if you open up your heart and let it in..... You'll find the beat again!"

So nothing profound or interesting...simply wanted to say that I have booked my NYC visit. Officially I will be spending the last 5 days of the year 2010 in this perfect city.

I simply wanted to document that this is a HUGE step in the life journey process that I have undertaken...and while I am very EXCITED for this trip opportunity I am equally nervous, as this is a SOLO adventure for me. I haven't fully processed that I have actually committed to this trip, so my reflections are minimal...this day was exhausting in the best of ways.

So I guess the next steps are too spend the next two months making sure this trip is purposeful and productive. Time to throw myself fully into planning, mapping, and virtually exploring the city so it can be well prepared for my arrival. Things I hope to gain by this...clarity, direction, and reassurance that eventually, someday down the road, NYC will be my home.

Sidenote: Little bit in love with this hotel I'm staying at...it looks mysterious.

http://www.thejanenyc.com/

"Could be the windows down on a Sunday drive, The smell of rain on a summer night, Anything that brings a little more comfort my way..."

They say...

Life is what you make it. Think outside the box. Live with an open heart and an open mind and the possibilities are endless. The choices you make determine your outcome. Opportunities are doorways for making great decisions. Live each day as if it is your last. Seize the moment...

Well I don't know how I feel about any of that... Recently I have learned to take babysteps toward mastering living one day at a time.

Why this is important? I am not exactly certain. However, I am well aware that sometimes life breaks itself down to the point where day to day living is the only option.

This is what I am certain of... Once you begin to figure out how live with a new attitude that models a head first outlook to life then great things will begin to happen.

For me, the only way this is possible is by taking great leaps of faith into the unknown.

These are the little things I have found in my days lately that makes me believe it is possible...

Songs with good lyrics, random unexplainable coincidences, a city skyline, a quiet sunset, an email, rain clouds, a conversation around the dinner table, a picture, a smile, a walk in the woods, a cold fall morning, a warm cup of coffee, laughter, one single clear thought, an organized bookshelf, a dance party, an airplane overhead, and 15,000 simple phrases.

"They say the first time won’t ever last..."

"Learn the art of patience.

Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds

anxiety,

fear,

discouragement

and

failure.

Patience creates

confidence,

decisiveness,

and a rational outlook,

which eventually leads to success."

See it coming getting better getting better now...Feel the shake shake steady of a soul to the flame

Trying to get it figured out.

A lifetime for a day would be an even trade..no price I wouldn't pay for your heart...

If words could make it real
I'd tell you how I feel
Instead I'm waiting here on my knees love
I know how it feels to breathe
With you beside me
I think about it always.....

Because none of it was ever worth the risk...Well, You, are, the only exception...

"At a point that he knew by instinct and by the shape of the buildings surrounding the park, he struck out on a steep path overgrown with trees, and climbed a short distance until he reached the clearing that led to the hill. Before him stretched upward, and above it the brilliant sky, and beyond it, cloudy, and far away he saw the skyline of New York...here arose in him an exultation and a sense of power, and he ran up the hill like an engine, or a madman, willing to throw himself headlong into the city that glowed before him..."

-James Baldwin (Go Tell It on the Mountain, 1952)