"Rage keeps the person who feels it company. It moves into the hollows left by grief and loss, and turns inside you like a dark furred animal that grows and fills you; it kills off loneliness and takes its place"

"I wanted to be more mature, more reasonable, I wanted to have a big, fat, forgiving heart that could contain all this rage and still find room for kind, beneficent love, but I didn’t have it in me. I just didn’t. "

"I've been weak and I've been strong.  I've been thru the fire and I've been thru the storm.  Try to do right and I know I do wrong.  Just be happy for me when my life is gone.  Cause with no more hurt and no more tears, there will be no more pain and no more fears.  No more people in my face that are not sincere.  So smile for me when I'm no longer here."

“Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply; those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they now set on fire.”

"I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it and when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it. I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me."

to whom it may concern.

thank you for reminding me that you are an awful person.

thank you for keeping me aware of the fact that you only think of yourself.

thank you for  helping me feel better about myself knowing i'm not you.

you're pathetic.

i  really have no sympathy for you.

fix your own mistakes. clean up your own messes.

i'm done with you.

you were never worth any of my time in the first place.

"So don't you worry your pretty little mind People throw rocks at things that shine And life makes love look hard The stakes are high, the water's rough But this love is ours" -Taylor A Swift

“It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to.”

"People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard."

I'm on my knees
only memories 
are left for me to hold
Dont know how 
but Ill get by 
Slowly pull myself together 
Theres no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal
Nothing comes easily 
Fill this empty space 
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

GRACE KATE HAVNEVIK

"She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white. Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember what you heard. She likes to leave you hanging on her word..."

My sorrow, when she's here with me, thinks these dark days of autumn rain are beautiful as days can be; she loves the bare, the withered tree; she walks the sodden pasture lane.-Robert Frost

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn’t diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Relationships–of all kinds–are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

The happiest people on this planet are not those who live on their own terms but are those who change their terms for the ones whom they love."

So many things continue to surprise me.

The way I feel about situations.

The hope I have not lost.

How hard I love.

How quickly I forget.

The way it feels every time.

I wish I understood how it all worked.

Such a confusing, complex, excruciating, but rewarding process.

To the ones that make it all worth it, I wish I could explain how much it means to me.

I'm trying to understand this.

Evolve. Adapt. Experience.

Love. Beauty.

Hope.

Life.

"Everything just seems so loud. My loneliness is just so loud, and I cant stand this, I just want to come home."

"-No really, I mean it. Why is it so fucking hard to be in a relationship with me. Tell me everything I did to make you run from me. I'm beggin you, please...

-You're a control freak, you are.

-So?! that's fucking ridiculous, everyone is a control freak sometimes. that's what you have to do to get things done."

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

That for me it isn't over.

-ADELE

Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences of each. 

Is it the first summer storm

Is it the colors of fall

Is it having so little 

And yet having it all

Is it one in a million

Is it a chance to belong

Is it standing right here singing this song

"At the end of the day I just want to be able to fall asleep knowing that our lives are intertwined in a way only we can understand. Chances are, I'll never get a moment like this again, so here's everything I ever wanted to tell you. No one has ever gotten me like you. I've never found anyone who makes me laugh like you. You're the one person who I can honestly see myself happy with. The definition of love to me is you."

I just want to find something to  drown out the sounds.

My loneliness is so loud.

Love is louder.

At the same time, I want a profound sadness.

It seems that heartbreak is the only solution.

To truly know.

Loss and sacrifice.

I wish nothing but the best for you.