“Slowly I raise my eyes and take in the water spreading out in every direction. I can only form one clear thought. This is no place for a girl on fire.”

My figures fail to tell me
How far the Village lies --
Whose peasants are the Angels --
Whose Cantons dot the skies --
My Classics veil their faces --
My faith that Dark adores --
Which from its solemn abbeys
Such ressurection pours.

-Emily Dickinson

All those days watching in the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing 
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here suddenly I see 
Standing here it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

"From this day on... when I look back on the past... I will smile... and say to myself... I never thought I could do it... but I did... I over came all the people who tried to bring me down."

Sick of trying to defend myself, 

sick of trying to force you to understand something I don't need to explain.

Out to explore and experience, and nothing else matters.

Struggling through the struggle

and waiting for the light to appear.

The plan that is in progress will come to fruition when the time is right.

So let me be,

let me be me.

And I want freedom.

And I'm done  trying to defend.

Can't wait to become more of myself.

Break down the walls, head into the wild.

I'm not here for you, I'm here for me.

I'm here to be a better me. 

"Don't breathe, no I never meant to let it get away from me Now, I've too much to hold, everybody has to get their hands on gold, And I want uncharted."

FOR THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO I COULD NEVER LIVE WITHOUT...

“We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” 

"You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong but you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone."

"We act like we know it all. You know -- and I've got it all together ... But we don't know what is going on half the time. We're scared to death ...(of) not finding it ... our place ... I mean, I've had moments --- and I knew that there was no other place that I should be -- but those are moments and then they go..."

“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too--even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

“All the pathos and irony of leaving one’s youth behind is thus implicit in every joyous moment of travel: one knows that the first joy can never be recovered, and the wise traveler learns not to repeat successes but tries new places all the time.” 

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

You may not understand what I'm talking about, but it makes sense to me.

In those moments where you step back, and see it in its entirety,

the pieces that fit together, and where they belong in the puzzle.

Some people put together the outline, starting with the corners...the framework.

Those lucky ones who realize the bigger picture and fill in the rest,..

Well I started with the center and I'm working on the rest 

and, just now...

 starting to see the bigger picture.

I love the night, but lately have been gathering a better appreciation for the morning.

The possibility of a day and the sunrise.

Desperate for it to make sense, forcing patience...

don't forget to trust...without trust we have fear.

Fear can be so debilitating.

Looking back at experiences where I had fear,

I didn't trust in  the adventure.

In order to maximize experience you have to have trust ,

that things are going to be okay...

trust in the ferocity of life,

the relationships you have built.

but most importantly,

in yourself.

Trust leads to so much freedom.

That's what I want really, the freedom,

to be.

to do.

to explore.

to love.

to live.

Never underestimate the power or unconditional love.

Keep the people who support you close,

distance yourself from those who break you down.

trust that those in your past who remain in your present will appear in your future.

Those people are so valuable and irreplaceable.

count your blessing, believe them, they might know you better then you know yourself.

don't allow the adventure and allure of freedom keep you from strengthening those bonds.

chances are...when you look back on it all,

you'll remember the sunsets and sunrises,

the beauty of nature,

the roads you've traveled,

the cities you've lived in,

but mostly the way the people in your life made you feel.

focus on the good and forget the bad.

believe them.

they might know you better then you know yourself.