“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”

That moment when you just knew,

that everything was the way it was meant to be.

Your soul mate, your best friend...

the person you crave the instant you wake in the morning,

and the person you miss if they are absent from your sleep.

To inspire,

to receive love, and to give love away...

endless, boundless, untouchable.

Its more then a look or a simple embrace,

it's the most unexplained perfection.

Forever and always...

"its one of those days when you wake up and feel lost in a world that doesn't belong to you. And you start searching for something or someone to feel that you mean something but you get even more lost. Yes, today is one of those days..."

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehowOne step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand moreTime stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this...

i don't know how i got to where i am.

i don't know how i will go on from here.

i know where i have been is the most beautiful place.

i know that how i traveled has not been easy.

what will become of what has been?

what will be created out of what is left?

I  never forgot you along the way,

so proud of where I got too...feeling this mix of belonging and  un-belonging.

I have become a stranger to myself in a life I cannot recognize,

because the landscapes of my surroundings are ever changing , transforming.

Beauty is the most evident thing.

Life can be so damn beautiful.

Am i am observer or a participant?

Feeling like there is something i'm actively doing,

but feeling a victim of my own actions.

Here i am in a place i wished for,

every place i've ever wished has come to me,

surrounded me and welcomed me as  an object on the most beautiful landscape.

In fact, everything I've ever truly wanted...i've gotten.

I've shouldered the burdens along the way, setting goals and reaching higher each time.

Desires masked by successes, never more then i can handle.

So here i am... 9 months and 2 days longer...

but don't worry i didn't forget you.

you used to be in every thought, in every moment, in every sound, and every story.

i held you close, then shared you  with few, then held you close again.

and now i quietly acknowledge you as i go upon the living i am in.

And i saw love ... real true love.

And it was so beautiful.

mirroring the most brilliant sunset on the quietest beach above the most mysterious waves.

The feeling that the most perfect moment is happening,

and you feel glad and you feel hopeful.

I'm so thankful for the people who i hold close,

without whom my purpose would be lost.

Each new life, and new start to life has reminded me that i reached higher...

the sacrifice, compromise, the suitcases.

walking away from my dreams and into someone else's to gain a better perspective on the important things in life.

Now left at a place of pondering...

where to go from here?

what lies in store now that the events have come to fruition.

am i ready to leave behind and take the road less traveled?

shall i remain in a comfortable discomfort of what should be.

Should i remain in the footsteps of someone else's dreams?

Perhaps this is what I wanted the whole time,

to live in this lifetime ...these dreams are my own.

Confused with events of what should be and what will be.

Sometimes i can't believe how much of a gift life is.

Please please never take it fore granted.
Appreciate every moment because it's the most undeserved blessing.

keep yourself accountable to the world, but don't let the world own you.

realize that love has so many different faces and so many different forms.

seek out opportunities to create a better version of self.

pay homage to the beauty that is all around.

cause wherever you are going, whatever is next to come...

this is what is important

and it all matters.

I know that it's unclear now what should be,

but then again, it's never been a clear path way.

You're different then they are and you have always been that way,

but don't use that as an excuse to isolate and morph into a creature of indecision.

Embrace the love that is given to you,

and give love away...

freely and selflessly... give love away.

remain in perspective and don't get antsy for the things to come.

appreciate the moment you are in.

learn about yourself.

when it's time to reach higher,

be brave.

don't let fear and stupidity keep you from doing the right thing.

keep hope that that time will come again.

remain encouraged.

and love.