“I want to be like water. I want to slip through fingers, but hold up a ship.” -Michelle Williams
"There is one spectacle grander than the sea, that is the sky; there is one spectacle grander than the sky, that is the interior of the soul."
“Don't you realize that the sea is the home of water? All water is off on a journey unless it's in the sea, and it's homesick, and bound to make its way home someday”
I believe in the endless stretches of ocean I see. I believe in the tide and the waves. I crave the smell of the salty spray. I crave the sounds of the water meeting the earth. The ocean is freedom. Let me flee to the boundless infinity of a life at sea.
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
well i haven't blogged in a while, i apologize for the slacking. i can feel it all building up in my head too. been swept away in the craziness of living in a new place, the beginnings of a job search, holiday travel plans, and general settling in. meant to do a Thanksgiving blog, but found myself without my computer. realized from looking back on last Thanksgiving blog entry that I have a lot to be grateful. The basics of me is still there, however quite a bit has changed. the thought pace has definitely slowed since leaving NYC. perhaps it's because I have other outlets to release them, or the fact that I'm not constantly in my head, or maybe inspiration runs more scarce outside of the concrete jungle. I miss NYC, the freedom and adventure and gritty city living. i have been convinced lately though, of how much i made the right choice to leave. i got all i could get out of it at the moment i was there. it's time to put that book up on the shelf and i can revist it later. i'm not back to square one it seems of figuring out my life path. much less controlled then last time, still taking things as they come. i realize though its wide open spaces. partially i would like to buy a car and make it my home for the next couple months and drive all over the us, discovering the hidden hideouts. exploring city streets, hiking the grand canyon, driving open desert roads and winding through the mountains of new york state. someday maybe. i have decided that my sights are still set on california. again. waiting for the right time to pull the trigger because this will be one of the last big chapters of the great adventure and i want to make sure i'm stable and ready to really settle down somewhere. there is much traveling to be done before that. i feel like a sponge. i am absorbing everything i see and do and each new adventure teaches me something new about the world i live in and the people around me. how fortunate to be such a free agent. i'm obsessed with travel and have already began to brainstorm for my next trip. i was called the "wandering gypsy" the other day. i take that as a compliment. like alexander supertramp, my home is the road. also working on a new bucket list. have been having some big ideas lately. i have discovered that being an avid fan has provided me much happiness for my two greatest obsession. but success of others can be quite motivating. lately i've also been strangely aware of my age. too old to be the way i want. too young to make excuses. such a strange time of self-evolution. things i'm continuing to be: patient with waiting for life to unfold, trying, the constant struggle, of being zen and calm with myself, counting my blessings, building and breaking relationships, open eyes and open ears to my world around me, appreciating every opportunity, listening to some amazing music. there are definitely things i couldn't live without. technology, internet, music, the sunset, the ocean, a warm smile, love. this i know. okay well hopefully i'll be better with keeping up with this thing. i really like charting my thoughts because it's fun to look back later. my pictures just remind me of how much better my photography skills are getting. carry on living. laughing. dancing. exploring. don't forget what got you here. remember the dark times so you always remember to step into the light. keeping an open mind and light heart. never settle. never stop loving. beauty is the essence of everything.celebrate. life.