"So don't you worry your pretty little mind People throw rocks at things that shine And life makes love look hard The stakes are high, the water's rough But this love is ours" -Taylor A Swift

“It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to.”

"People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard."

I'm on my knees
only memories 
are left for me to hold
Dont know how 
but Ill get by 
Slowly pull myself together 
Theres no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal
Nothing comes easily 
Fill this empty space 
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

GRACE KATE HAVNEVIK

"She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white. Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember what you heard. She likes to leave you hanging on her word..."

My sorrow, when she's here with me, thinks these dark days of autumn rain are beautiful as days can be; she loves the bare, the withered tree; she walks the sodden pasture lane.-Robert Frost

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn’t diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Relationships–of all kinds–are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

The happiest people on this planet are not those who live on their own terms but are those who change their terms for the ones whom they love."

So many things continue to surprise me.

The way I feel about situations.

The hope I have not lost.

How hard I love.

How quickly I forget.

The way it feels every time.

I wish I understood how it all worked.

Such a confusing, complex, excruciating, but rewarding process.

To the ones that make it all worth it, I wish I could explain how much it means to me.

I'm trying to understand this.

Evolve. Adapt. Experience.

Love. Beauty.

Hope.

Life.